The Battle in My Head: A poem about health anxiety

Symptom? Is that a symptom?

Yes, I think it is!! A symptom of that God awful deadly disease that I’ve read about at some point.

I MUST have this disease now! Even though I have only one symptom.

Even though I have a symptom that could be one hundred other things.

Even though my symptom is almost always the result of too much anxiety and overthinking.

Maybe I’ll see my doctor….even though I just saw her a few months ago for that different symptom.

Maybe she missed something.

Maybe the symptoms are connected.

I know! I’ll push for an MRI or some invasive test to BE SURE!

Doctor says I don’t need the testing….that it is likely stress.

Okay then. I feel better…..for a day or two.

Oh! The symptom is still there….and I KNOW it is getting worse. I know it! I know this because I keep THINKING about it.

That’s it! I’m going back to the doctor and demanding that scan/test/reassurance!

The doctor gets frustrated and gives in and I feel relief. For now…..until the cycle repeats again…..

Symptom? Is that a symptom?

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me!

I am looking forward to this journey with you! I hope that this site can offer peace of mind in knowing that you don’t suffer from anxiety and/or depression alone.  Perhaps it will encourage you to share your story as well.

Please bear with me as I explore the world of blogging.  I’ve always been a writer, but have never shared my writings.  Writing is personal, yet as I’ve learned over the years….it is therapeutic.  

Who am I?  Well, I tend to be quite private and introverted.  I’ve learned that sometimes this can cause more harm then good… it can become isolating.  Anyone relate?  I am a mom, wife, and teacher as well.  I believe my true calling is working with animals (the non-talking kind….lol), but I am still soul searching with that one!

In the upcoming blogs, I plan to write about various cases of anxiety, my trips down Depression Lane, my way back out of the darkness, and back down again.  I plan to write about anxiety and their affects o relationships, jobs, and socializing.  And for those of you with health anxiety, I’ve got a bunch of stuff for you!  If you are familiar with anxiety and/or depression, you will know it is a roller coaster ride.  

Again, I look forward to sharing my stories, as I hope you will too!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton